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Ada banyak yang saya lewati beberapa minggu terakhir. Ada begitu banyak rasa tumpah ruah, semacam perkelahian luar dalam, kosa kata yang kadang lepas kontrol dari kandangnya, maklumi saja.
Saya ini manusia. Kamu juga pasti pernah mengalaminya.
I am kinda person who finally has the gut to say what I want to say. Brave enaff to express my feelings, even when actually so afraid and shiver, my voice shaking and my words stammering.
I look back to the old me, I saw a girl who has no confidence, over-thinking, never believe herself that she is GOOD enough or even BETTER. I thought, I have no excellent skills in any field. Very low self-esteem, ahhh, those hard days always make me smile right now because at that time, I CLEARLY UNDERSTAND WHO STAND NEXT TO ME in my bad days.
For those who said will never leave me, they left. Who said they love me, they cheated. Who I gave my trust, they lied.
And thanks to them, I grow up even stronger and I KNOW EXACTLY what kind of person I don't want to be. Because I know how it hurts to be underdog, so I make a lot of friends and stay LOYAL to them and promise my friends that no matter what, I will love them and they got my back. I know how angry I am to those who underestimate people, who is very judgemental without knowing what kind of journey someone's been through.
Those who don't know how difficult to wake up everyday, building the brick of bravery from hurts, fails, or whatever could break the heart, I can say, FCUK you, you lil bitch and faggots. Hopes karma slap you before I do.
This is a journey of life and so many people come and go. Some they left for good, some left without even a word. Some left memories to remember, some even don't deserve a fcuking HELL-o when I meet them again. Some left a warm hug, some left scars.
I've been here and there, loved and brokean-hearted, cried and laughing out loud, been black and white. And I'm proud.
I'm standing taller now and will reach the top, I understand more that life gives us lesson and lesson for every bad things, I thank more that my hardwork paid off, still, everyday, I make a new step to reach my dreams.
And ALWAYS remember this, whoever think they are not beautiful, trust me, every one is beautiful starting from the INSIDE, it will never gets old or wrinkles. Whoever think they are NOT-DESERVE-SOMEONE-BETTER, trust me, if you are not happy with yourself you'll never happy with any-relationship so love yourself first. Whoever think that they can not reach their dreams, trust me, those guts come from your MIND, stay positive because what you Imagine is the future plan about yourself.
At the end,
Just do whatever you love to do and say whatever you want to say, mostly cause we know, PEOPLE are still going to find something to hate either way.
Screw them, We are AWESOME!!!!
Yes, you, who read this, YOU ARE AWESOME!!
Love,
ADorable
